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31 januari 2004

15 Days Left

Teddy music: Black Eyed Peas ft. Justin Timberlake - Where's The Love

15 days more 'til Valentine's.

My current thoughts are exactly what the song says, "Where's the love?" Okay, okay, so it's a different "love" I'm asking about...I'm asking where's that special someone for me??

Yeah, I know that many have told me that "my time will come", "be patient", "wait for it to come to you" and etc.

It's not that I'm desperately seeking a boyfriend...just wondering where is he? =)

I'm fine being single but sometimes seeing all those couples around you (especially among close friends), it kinda gets you thinking.

Oh well.

To quote Snow White, "One day, my prince will come." Heh. *grins*

'Til then, I'm okay being a single teddy, living life her way...

Teddy music: The Corrs - Give Me A Reason

Just came back from 1 Utama. Went there with two of my college seniors, Seng (also my pet brother or "adopted older bro") & Fong (he just came back from finishing his studies in New Zealand). Fong's so sweet...on the way when we passed by Coffeebean & Tea Leaf, I jokingly said, "So, who's up for coffee?" He turned around and said, "You want?" I was only joking but he said he'll really buy it for me and he did! He bought coffee for all three of us...yum! I asked him why was he being so nice by buying me coffee and he replied that he hadn't seen me in a while so it was for a treat. *teddy grins*

It was nice hanging out with the two of them after not seeing them since I started my hols. Seng, that guy, was as cheeky as ever - proceeded to tease the hell outta me when we weren't teasing the hell outta Fong. Hehehe...

It's all in good fun...=)

I bought my gift for my Secret RBJ Valentine project recipient at Folio. I sure hope that said person will like the prezzie (and hopefully, doesn't own one yet!!) It's quite cute, really. It's this thing called a Mini Beanie Multi-Purpose Mini Sofa. I think I'd like to get one for myself...or someone could buy it for me...hint, hint. Hehe ;)

Here's a pic of the Mini Beanie Multi-Purpose Mini Sofa:
minibeanie_multipurposesofa.jpg

Now, to make the card and post the whole she-bang off to the person...

I wonder who my secret sender is...hmmm *teddy wonders*

Teddy music: Brandy ft. Ray J - Another Day In Paradise

Ah, a cover of a Phil Collins song...

When I was out with my seniors, I realised something. I like hanging out with older people. Generally, I like being with people who are several years older...that way, I get to be the "baby" of the group. Hehe.

It's kinda nice when you're the youngest 'cuz everyone will treat you like a little kid sister and take care of you. It's not that I like being babied, I just like that feeling of comfort and shelter. I am NOT a baby, k?

Heh, and besides, sometimes you can get away with certain things when you're the youngest! =P

Of course, I do like being with friends my own age or younger but if I had to choose, I'd probably go with the older bunch. Seems to me that I end up as one of the "elders" when around friends my age or younger. Being around elder friends reverses that role for me. *teddy grins*

Yeah, so when I do get a boyfriend, I think he's probably gonna be older than me or at least, more matured than me...heh

Sighs... *waits for prince to come*

Must go and find my sandals for my trip this weekend at Tanjung Jara Resort. Have fun, y'all and MISS me while I'm gone!! :D

*teddy hugs*

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30 januari 2004

Hey Ya - Charlie Brown Style

Teddy music: Outkast - Hey Ya

This song makes me happy even though it's a break up song...I luv the beat! *bops teddy head*

Anyways, check out this awesomely cool link that has really good videos of stuff - Totally Flabbergasted

Okay, so it's in Dutch but you can still understand some bits, right?

Hehe.

Go and download the "Hey Ya - Charlie Brown". It's so cute how they combined the cartoon with the music. Oh, go and check out the Madonna Wannabe as well...it's a real scream!

=)

Dean Goes Nuts is another fun URL to visit when you're bored.

Teddy music: Matchbox Twenty - Unwell

I'll be leaving for Tanjung Jara tomorrow morning about 7am. *pulls eyes*

Will be back either Monday/Tuesday...and my bro from Singapore's coming as well... =)

*teddy hugs*

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Changing Fonts & Missing Teddies

Teddy music: Dido - Hunter

Well, after getting comments on the fonts not looking nice, I've changed them to the sans-serif version.

Oh, and I can't believe I overlooked the small teddy! Thanks to Tim for pointing it out. Heeh. =) It's back up on the curvy line...*gets all "fuzzed"*

Anyways, there's only about a week left until my new semester begins.

I'd put up the outline of my new schedule here but am too lazy to move my arse downstairs to take it off the fridge door.

Anyways...that's about it for now. Today was basically spent "fruitfully" in creating my spanking-new blogskin.

Heh, I didn't realise until just now that the colour scheme goes nicely with Chinese New Year as well. =)

*teddy hugs*

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29 januari 2004

Revamped Look

Teddy music: Savage Garden - Hold Me

Looky, looky!! *jumps with childish glee*

Hahahha...I've finally created my own blogskin!! Yay...

What do you think of it? I used another template as an outline for the layout but the rest is all mine...MINE, I tell you...wehehe

I lurve the colour red as you can quite obviously see =)

It took me less than 24 hours considering I had a layout template so all I had to do was fill in the blanks with whatever I wanted...

I still can't get over how proud I am of my very own first blogskin. =P

Fire away...

Note: I'm getting better slowly but surely...it was a bit of a hard knock to take. Thanks to everyone who voiced their concerns =)

*teddy hugs*

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It's Been Resolved

Teddy music: Dartmouth Aires - Smooth Criminal

So, I've been told that the problem is resolved. I hope so.

Still hurting and slightly miffed from it. I hurt easily and heal slowly. Damn.

Must. Stop. Swearing.

=)

Went to Midvalley to watch "The Last Samurai" with my collegemates but ended up watching "Cheaper By The Dozen". I teared up during the movie near the end - yeh, the mushy parts.

Teddy music: Hillsongs - Irresistable

Actually, we were supposed to watch "The Last Samurai" at 3.15pm. Initially, I thought I was gonna miss out on it cuz I had to take the KTM to KL Sentral and switch to Putra LRT to get to the Bangsar LRT station. In fact, I would've been there earlier had I NOT not taken the wrong train. You see, I was supposed to board the Seremban-bound train. Instead, the incredible genius that I am, I boarded the Rawang-bound train. I didn't realise my mistake until after 20 minutes or so when I was thinking, "Eh? Shouldn't I be at KL Sentral by now?" Looking out at the upcoming station, the signboard read "Kuang". I was like, "DAMN! Get off the train, get off the train, get off the train, get off the train, GET OFF THE BLOODY TRAIN!!!"

Teddy music: Janet Jackson - Got Til It's Gone

Yep, I felt so smart right then and there.

My collegemates had a good laugh at my expense.

Yeh, so actually, I was pondering whether I should still go ahead to Midvalley or should I just go down to KLCC and maybe hang out with some old friends. I decided to go to Midvalley since I had to pass some stuff to them.

I arrived, breathless, at the GSC cinema at 3.25pm and thought, "Gee, maybe I can still buy a ticket and get in late. I'll only miss the first few minutes of the movie." Boy, was I wrong! The queue was so freaking long...oh my gosh!! I was thinking, "Where do these people come from? Isn't it a working day???" Go figure.

Then, I saw the bunch of collegemates standing to one side and they explained that they couldn't get tickets either. Lucky me. I didn't need to mooch around Midvalley for an hour plus while they enjoy "The Last Samurai". Heh.

So that was my day after a miserable yesterday. At least it was better. =)

Yeh, and I would like to request a minute of silence for my friend's girlfriend's dad who passed away early yesterday.

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28 januari 2004

Unwind With A Friend

Teddy music: Incubus - Are You In

After a somewhat emotional day, well, evening...I made the decision to get out of the house because I just knew that if I stayed home, I'd probably do something stupid and regret it later.

So I did just that.

Actually, I wanted to stay somewhere else for the night but my dad asked me not to. So, I said that if he wouldn't let me stay the night somewhere else, then at least let me get out of the house for a while. Luckily, he was fine with that.

Called up one of my best friends from high school and hung out with him. It was pretty nice to be around someone who didn't make me feel anything...just neutral fun. Had a nice time chatting with him. Haven't seen him (but made calls) since the last time my other best friend came back from Canada.

I'm so happy I have such great high school friends!!

Well, the problem has been resolved somewhat...but I'm still smarting from the side-effects...I hate being caught in the crossfire...totally TOTALLY sucks to the max...

In l33t language, it would be summed up as t0t4lly sux t0 th3 m4x!!

I was talking to my best friend about crying and we both agreed that silent crying is the worst 'cuz it makes others feel uncomfortable as they can't do much for you except maybe hand you a tissue/hanky? Personally, I usually cry silent tears because the emotions are too deep to be expressed verbally and I usually try to control (but generally fail!) the tears.

Yep...

P.S. Oh yeah, I finally got to drive an automatic car thanks to my friend who let me drive it halfway home...he said that I can drive it the next time we're together since he's so tired of driving!! Yay...hehehe

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27 januari 2004

Fly Me Far Away From Here

Teddy music: Dido - White Flag

Someone, please, take me away from this horrible mess of life.

Oh yeh, here's the link to see the pictures.

Been messing around online to try and take my mind of it.

Angel
You are one of the few out there whose wings are
truly ANGELIC. Selfless, powerful, and
divine, you are one blessed with a certain
cosmic grace. You are unequalled in
peacefulness, love, and beauty. As a Being of
Light your wings are massive and a soft white
or silver. Countless feathers grace them and
radiate the light within you for all the world
to see. You are a defender, protector, and
caretaker. Comforter of the weak and forgiver
of the wrong, chances are you are taken
advantage of once in awhile, maybe quite often.
But your innocence and wisdom sees the good in
everyone and so this mistreatment does not make
you colder. Merciful to the extreme, you will
try to help misguided souls find themselves and
peace. However not all Angelics allow
themselves to be gotten the better of - the
Seraphim for example will be driven to fighting
for the sake of Justice and protection of those
less powerful. Congratulations - and don't ever
change - the world needs more people like you.


*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~*
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Morpheus
Morpheus


?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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Contrast
Dark shadow. Something has drawn you into darkness
in the past, and you're now trying to get out
of it. The darkness is already inside you, and
getting it out will be hard, but if you try,
maybe one day you can be who you want to be
again. Don't give in!!!


Please rate ^^


What kind of dark person are you?
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Sorrowful
As if you were born into a world of tears, you
always tend to look at the darker things in
life. Inside you crave attention yet push away
society, and you're a hopeless romantic. Drawn
to things like the occult and mysteries, you
spend your time daydreaming.


What Type of Soul Do You Have ?
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HASH(0x8380590)
Rain: You are the sound of rain. You have two
important sides. There is your strong, powerful
side and your calm, gentle side. Both are very
important. Rain also reflects a bit of darkness
in your personality. It isn't bad, just shows
that along with the good, you also can see bad,
which can come in handy. (please rate my quiz)


What Sound Are You?(now w/ pics)
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Your an Umbrella. Umbrellas a kind, caring people,
that watch over others. Everyone respects you
and views you as a good example. Your friendly,
non-judgemental, and cool. Umbrellas are all
around nice people.


What random object are you? Many detailed outcomes - find out about your personality!
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Scorpio
You're a Mystical. You don't fit in in any way and
most people just find you weird, but you are in
a group. You are respected by everyone, even
though you're just really different.


What kind of group person are you?
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Wind
You are guided by the wind. You obey your impulses.
You are the kind of person that is always comng
up with ideas that would be fun, yet somewhat
destructive. (Rate my test)


What force is your soul?
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fire
Fire. Impulsive. Unlike Air, you do jump before you
look. When you have something in mind, you
won't let go. You have a strong will, and will
do anything to get what you want. From time to
time you can forget that other people have
feelings too, but at most, you're a happy
jumping friend.


What is your element?
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sky
You came from the sky. Your a daydreamer and prefer
to have a good look on situations.


Where did you come from?
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cho
You're chocolate. You're the old soul type, people
feel that they have known you their entire
life. Many often open up to you for they view
you as thoughtful and trustworthy. Although
people trust you, you have a hard time trusting
them. You prefer to keep your feelings bottled
up inside, or display them very quietly. It is
alright to open up every once in a while.


Which kind of candy are you?
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This Bites

No teddy music - No mood

I just don't get it sometimes.

All of a sudden, it'll just blow up and make everything miserable.

This bites.

I hate this.

Why bring it up now?

I mean, what's the BIG f**king deal?

Oh, for crying out loud...just drop it and move on!

I wish that I could just get away from this...

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25 januari 2004

Breakdancing Penguins

Teddy music: The Androids - Do It With Madonna

Haha...I found these two links when surfing around in RBJ's forums today.

Play "Whack A Fat Penguin" and tell me your score...my highest so far has been 320.2. Apparently, you can get it as high as 500+! =)

This other link is the Kollaborations Project which is aimed at creating better bonds among the Asian Americans. Got this off minimoo's blog. Go check out the breakdancing video (click on the pic of the guy in a red shirt)...you'll be amazed!

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A State Of Cats

Teddy music: Matt Redman - The Voice of the Lord

Okiez...so I've officially been home for roughly 2.5-3 hours. Yeap, spent the first 3 days of the Chinese New Year at my ye ye's (granpa's) place at Kuching, Sarawak.

Gong Xi Fa Cai to all those who celebrate CNY!! *teddy hugs*

Anyways, it was nice to see my ye ye after so long. My family sans Kevin flew there on Wednesday night. Kev couldn't come since the flights were all full from Singapore-Johor/KL-Kuching so he had to spend CNY in Singapore.

Teddy music: Hillsongs - Better Than Life

Our flight which was supposed to leave at 5.10pm got pushed to 8.30pm therefore making us extremely late for our reunion dinner. Ended up arriving in Kuching at 11pm. My poor ye ye had been kept up waiting for us. You see, he typically goes to bed by 8.30pm and wakes up at 4am to go for Mass. Anyways, I was rather disappointed that we couldn't have a proper reunion dinner (my ye ye had the restaurant deliver the food to his home instead of us eating there as it was already too late) since he had already eaten earlier and was quite tired. Sighs...

It was nice in a way to be around my ye ye considering the last time we visited him as a family was when I was 12. He had shrunk as well. Is it just me or do old people gradually shrink?? He seemed smaller and more fragile. But he was still robust (in the old person way) in going about his daily activities of going to Mass, treating patients (he's a Chinese sinseh/traditional doctor - a darn good one too! *beams*) and whatever else he does there. Heh.

Teddy music: Hillsongs - Magnificent

I noticed that his eyes had faded on the outer edges of his irises. It looked like a pale slate-grey colour and it reminded me about one of my lecturers whose eyes look like that as well (he's pretty old too). Is it another old age thing? *wonders*

In short, the time at Kuching was spent eating, sleeping, lounging, reading and driving. Most would find it rather boring at my ye ye's place since he pretty much lives in the past - he doesn't have a lot of modern appliances i.e. no microwave, big oven, big TV, high-end radio, no water heater, no electric kettle, etc. Only one room has an air-con which was only installed a few years ago and even then, my ye ye doesn't sleep in that room, he prefers to sleep in my dad's old room. He lives a very simple life.

Teddy music: Hillsongs - Touching Heaven Changing Earth

I can definitely say that my ye ye is very blessed. His place is always well stocked with food as his patients are always giving him gifts/money as tokens of gratitude. So we had plenty of munchies while in staying in Kuching. =)

My dad took us around Kuching to visit different parts including Santubong and Bau. The pictures will be posted up later. ;)

Teddy music: Hillsongs - All Of My Days

Coming back to Sarawak is very much a trip down memory lane for me, having been born and spending nearly a decade of my life there. Especially when visiting my ye ye's place. Things have changed though as the old rambutan tree and the turtle has gone.

I remember peering over the big jar's rim to spy on the old turtle moving lethargically at the bottom. I remember my dad picking rambutans off the tree and us eating its sweet, translucent flesh with the sticky juice dribbling down our chins and little fingers. When I look at the central bookshelf, I remember how Kev hit his head on a corner, trying to run away from my ye ye and ended up with a little dent in his face, just beside his left (or is it right? Can't remember) eyebrow. He was running away trying to avoid getting his hair dried properly by my ye ye. Hehe. Silly boy.

We even went to visit my grandma’s grave after driving to Bau. My youngest bro had never seen her or her grave prior to this as he was born after her passing.

Teddy music: Hillsongs - Most High

Well, my Australian cousins have grown up a lot since I last saw them. They're a lot nicer too as well...hehe. Not half as annoying as last time. My girl cousin is actually rather pretty now (she's 13 in April).

One thing I will say about our time in Kuching was that it rained EVERYDAY. The last day we left, it had been raining practically non-stop since morning. And, in Kuching, when it rains, it really rains. Buckets. Torrents. Sheets. Gallons. It's as if the sky had opened itself up and poured all its moisture on the face of Kuching. No shortage of water here to be found! Hehe...too bad it can't be transferred over to Klang Valley in times of need. =P

The air is super-saturated with moisture...good for dry skin =D

Teddy music: Hillsongs - The Love of God Can Do

Oh, something really freaky happened a few hours before we left as well. You see, the aunty who's helping watch over my ye ye had told my dad that sometimes, my ye ye will momentarily lapse into bouts of forgetfulness. My dad told me that he'd never actually witnessed it on his trips back to Kuching and that today was the first time he saw it for himself.

Teddy music: Hillsongs - Mourning Into Dancing

My dad and I were sitting and talking about some old photos of us kids. My ye ye was at his home altar (it's just a table with all these Catholic items on it - rosaries, pictures of the Virgin Mary & Jesus, crucifixes, Bibles) on his knees and he was reciting the prayers on the rosary when he suddenly stopped halfway. My dad was on the alert when this happened (I didn't think much of it at first as I thought my ye ye was just taking a breather) and when my ye ye started looking around like he'd lost something, we knew something was wrong. My youngest bro, Jonathan, who was reading nearby said that my ye ye had given him a strange look as if to say, "Who are you?" and the next thing that really alarmed my dad was when he asked, "Are you staying upstairs?"
We'd been in the house for 3 days by now.

My dad then proceeded to gently remind my ye ye about things like how a taxi had already been booked for us to go to the airport and things that happened recently.

I think it's just a touch of dementia. Old people need mental stimulation to stay alert. When patients come over to see my ye ye or when talking about medicine and related stuff, his eyes literally light up like a little boy and he gets all excited about it. It's quite cute, really. =) He's actually quite a healthy 80-year-old considering he is rather self-sufficient and lively. Heh.

Teddy music: Matt Redman - Open The Eyes of My Heart

Oh yeh, I had 2 nightmares (of which I won't divulge here) during the 2nd night we were in Kuching. I woke up after the first one with my heart beating rapidly and lay awake for a while trying to regain my breath. Then, I padded over to my dad's side and snuffled against him for a while. Yes, I'm a daddy's girl, so what? =P After that, I couldn't shut my eyes out of sheer fear but fell asleep from exhaustion. That's when I had my 2nd nightmare. It wasn't half as scary but it was certainly the shape of one of my secret fears. Brrr...*shivers*

Teddy music: Hillsongs - In The Silence

Well, to end it all, my family had a pretty good time in Kuching. Got to eat kolo mee, Sarawak laksa and "wet" char koay teow (it's mixed with a tomato-ey sauce...it sounds gross but it's so yummy!!) I'm missing those foods already!

Yeh, so what if this entry's long? It's got to cover 4 days, k? =P

*teddy hugs*

P.S. Congrats to Darren, Erin, Izal & Jase on getting into the finals for their Galaxie campaign in AdWave 2004!

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21 januari 2004

Sarawak-Style CNY

Teddy music: Blue ft. Stevie Wonder & Angie Stone - Signed, Sealed, Delivered

Well, I'll be flying off to Kuching later today about 5pm.

The first Chinese New Year I've spent at my grandpa's since I was 12, I believe.

Went for a yum cha session with some of my church friends (well, only knew about half of them as they're from my cellgroup) at the nasi kandar place in Chow Yang.

It's funny how out of the 3 people I asked about where Chow Yang was, only one could identify where it was. You see, I'd already been to that area but didn't know it was called Chow Yang. Luckily my friend told me that it was near the SS2 Mobil Station and located in the adjacent housing area. Found it with minimal problems...heh.

That reminds me of how I was telling my dad the other day that getting lost is a good way of finding new areas, as long as you've got enough petrol that is! =) Really, considering the amount of times I get lost when travelling to a new destination, it's helped to increase my area knowledge although half the time I don't know the area's name. Ironic, huh? Hehe...

Oh yeh, I'm so sad that I'm missing out on watching "My Lucky Star" that stars my fave actor, Tony Leung Chiu-Wai! Astro's airing it on Wah Lai Toi on the 1st day of Chinese New Year and I'll be in Kuching... *bawls* I want my Leung Chiu-Wai!! (I don't care if I've seen it already...it's got Leung Chiu-Wai in it, what more can you ask for?)

=)

Anyways, think I'd better get off now. I'll see you after I get back from Kuching!

*teddy hugs*

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19 januari 2004

To Skin A Blog

Teddy music: Elva ft. Blue - You Make Me Wanna

Okiez, does ANYONE know how to skin a blog? I'm really interested in creating my own blogskin as it's such a hassle trying to find a blogskin that I like. I have no idea how to get started with the coding and stuff. I've got ideas but no know-how. Sighs. Someone please help!!

Oh yeah, please don't tell me to look at the coding for other blogskins 'cuz it only confuses me even more... 8\

Thanks for anyone's help...


You're Ireland!
Mystical and rain-soaked, you remain mysterious to many people, and this makes you intriguing.  You also like a good night at the pub, though many are just as worried that you will blow up the pub as drink your beverage of choice.  You're good with words, remarkably lucky, and know and enjoy at least fifteen ways of eating a potato.  You really don't like snakes.
Take the Country Quiz at the Blue Pyramid

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And The Price Is...

Teddy music: Train - Drops of Jupiter

Sighs...me teddy paws are a-itching to hold a Nokia 3200. Yes, been trying to find out how much one of those costs to see if I can afford it. The last I heard was that it's around the RM1000 mark. =( That's way too expensive for me...Does anyone know what's the current pricing for Nokia 3200? Any comments would be welcomed as well since I'm doing a study of whether it's worth buying. =)

Looks like I'll have to depend on my trusty 3310 that's served me pretty well thus far.

Heh, earlier had a pretty long chat with a dear old friend, Bear (well, that's what I like to call him =P). It's pretty interesting to catch up with old friends after a long time. You get to hear all the exciting stuff that's happened in the space of a year. Haha.

I like reconnecting with good ol' friends. ;P

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18 januari 2004

Crimson Promise

Teddy music: Shakira - Objection (Tango)

I dyed my hair on Friday. It's a shade called Crimson Promise - supposed to be a soft reddish black according to the dye pack. Well, can't really see a difference unless I stand under sunlight...heh. Oh well. But, it does have a really sweet, fruity fragrance...mmmm ;)

Chinese New Year's coming in a few more days...this Wednesday I'm off to Kuching to visit my grandpa who I've not seen in a looong time...a minimum of 3-4 years, I believe. Apparently, my cousins from Australia are there as well. Hmm, we'll see how it goes. I guess I'll be drinking my Kahlua & Kampais to keep myself "sane" if those cousins start acting up again...they're a bit like Stitch from "Lilo & Stitch" EXCEPT they're not half as cute.

Been busy making CNY cards for some friends and my grandpa. Miss messing around with arts & crafts. Heh. It was so much fun cutting up paper, glueing stuff and drawing. Somehow, arts & crafts always remind me of my childhood in Holland where it was a regular feature in my life. I don't know how creative I can be considered but it's certainly very satisfying to view something that you produced with your very own hands.

Teddy music: Jay Chou - Long Juan Feng

Here's a peek at the CNY card I created specially for my grandpa =) *teddy beams*

granpacard.jpg
cardfront.jpg
cardback.jpg

I wanted to depart from the typical folded cards...so I created this which is a flat (duh!) card inside a hanging envelope with a translucent window on both sides so my grandpa can read the writing and he can hang it up somewhere, if he likes. Heh. By the way, the Chinese character for luck (fu) is supposed to be the front of the card.

*Happy sighs of satisfaction*

This is one of my works I'm proud of in a way. It's quite pretty, eh? Hehehhe...seeking for approval...so bite me! =P

Teddy music: Simple Plan - Addicted

By the way, Friendster is beginning to unearth a goldmine of old friends and it's a tad scary in a way to be looking one friend's friends and to suddenly see one of your own friends buried in there!

Hehe...well, as the French say, c'est la vié!

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15 januari 2004

Pass The Calamine Lotion

Teddy music: Simple Plan - Perfect

My skin's been kinda itchy of late. Especially around the shoulder area and between the collarbones, right above my breastbone.

Am thinking it must be an allergic reaction of some sort from my recent Langkawi trip. It's not that bad as it's not peeling...just itchy. Definitely not sunburn cuz I used sunblock before heading out under the sun.

Slept really long today. Went to bed about 1AM, then read The Joy Luck Club (fantastic book and really good movie intepretation) until eyes were zonked and was out til 2PM.

Haven't slept like that for a loooong time.

Sighs *scratches shoulders*

I feel the itch returning. Been slathering calamine lotion on shoulders and chest until my fingers now feel permanently powdery-sticky.

Yesterday was my youngest bro's 13th birthday. Finally, the last of the 3 kids has officially hit the teenage years. And, I'll be the first to leave those teenage years in about 283 days - I'll be 20!! Gaah...

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13 januari 2004

Unwasted Teddy

Teddy music: Simple Plan - Addicted

Heyloz!! Yes, the tedster has returned (slightly browned + battered) from Langkawi.

Am currently unpacking stuff so will blog about this at a later time. Heh.

Quite tired too...but will say one thing: STILL DIDN'T GET WASTED...

But, I did buy myself a small bottle of Kahlua and 2 Kampais to bring to Kuching for the Chinese New Year trip...at least I can have nice time drinking. Hehe.

:P

*teddy hugs and throws choccies around*

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10 januari 2004

Langkawi, Here We Come!

Teddy music: Leavin' On A Jetplane

Well, people, I'll be off to Langkawi tonight on the 11pm nightbus. Geesh, 6 hours of travelling on the roads. Gaahhh...

Will be spending 3D/2N there...hope I don't get sunburned but get a nice tan! Wahey...

Yeh, went to the opening sale at Giant 1 Utama with my mum. Let me say that my stress level went through the roof cuz there was just SO MANY people milling around. Madness, I tell you, madness!!

That is exactly the reason why I prefer to shop on weekdays during working hours. Less people, less chaotic, less stress. I can still remain in one piece by the end of the day. =)

Oh yeah, my daddy came back from America today too. Yay. He said the security at the airport was pretty high (read, in my own words I'd term it as "extreme"). Small wonder, the entire country's on the orange-level of security. Just one below RED.

I like red. My fave colour. Hehe

Well, will see you guys on Wednesday/Thursday!!

*teddy hugs*

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09 januari 2004

The Question Is WHY?

Teddy music: United Live - To The Ends Of The Earth

I was watching Good Charlotte's music video for "Hold On". I mean, I saw that vid sometime ago. And somehow, it’s kinda stuck in my mind since then.

Good Charlotte – Hold On (Lyrics)
This world
This world is cold
But you don't
You don't have to go
You're feeling sad, you're feeling lonely, and no one seems to care
You're mother's gone and your father hits you
This pain you cannot bear

But we all bleed the same way as you do
And we all have the same things to go through

Hold on if you feel like letting go
Hold on it gets better than you know

Your days
You say they're way too long
And your nights
You can't sleep at all
Hold on
And you're not sure what you're waiting for, but you don't want to no more
And you're not sure what you're looking for, but you don't want to no more

But we all bleed the same way as you do
And we all have the same things to go through

Hold on if you feel like letting go
Hold on it gets better than you know
Don't stop looking, you're one step closer
Don't stop searching, it's not over
Hold on
(music)

What are you looking for?
What are you waiting for?
Do you know what you're doing to me?
Go ahead...What are you waiting for?

Hold on if you feel like letting go
Hold on it gets better than you know
Don't stop looking, you're one step closer
Don't stop searching, it's not over
Hold on if you feel like letting go
Hold on it gets better than you know
Hold on

If you've seen the video (you can always go to mtv.com to check it out or download it from somewhere...hehe), you'll see that they asked actual people who've had encounters with suicide, either themselves personally or through family/friends. It makes me want to cry every time I see it. Especially near the end when they speak about how suicide isn't always the answer and how there's more beyond it.

Before you continue reading, I ask you to bear in mind that this is from my own viewpoint which includes personal and religious thoughts. To each his own, I say.

Makes you wonder really, how can people so willingly take their own lives?

Teddy music: Good Charlotte - Hold On

From a Christian point of view, taking one's own life is akin to murder - you destroy something before its due time. In fact, so many suicide-survivors say that they are grateful they DIDN'T commit suicide in the end. They realised that it was and is a pointless thing to do. Like I once heard/read somewhere, "Suicide is only a long-term solution to a short-term problem."

In my opinion, people who commit suicide are selfish. Why so? That's because they are only thinking of themselves. Did they think about how their family and friends would feel without their presence? I know that it's hard to imagine. Believe me, I've had problems with depression and self-apathy myself. Of course, none so serious that I went towards the suicidal walk but I have contemplated what life would be like without me. Only the fact that I believe suicide is a sin in Christianity is holding me back from walking down that one-way path.

Sometimes when I read about people as young as 12 years old taking their own life, it saddens me. My lecturer in Cross Cultural Studies once gave out newspaper clippings about suicides that happened in Malaysian among YOUNG people. I really believe that it is a plan of the Devil to glorify suicide for all the wrong reasons. Too many movies, dramas and music sing about suicide as the only way out of life’s problems. Like my pastor has said many times, “Only dead people have no problems.” God placed problems in everyone’s life to strengthen them, not kill them off. I believe in the saying of “that which does not kill you, will only make you stronger.” I look back over my 19 years of life and view the problems which I thought were insurmountable then. Admittedly, my life hasn’t been as hard as it has been for others. I can say that I’ve been blessed with many good things that many can only hope for. Even then, with such a “perfect” life, I bleed just like everyone else. It felt like I was never going to be able to overcome the problems I faced. But, deep down in my heart (and it grows stronger everyday), I know that someday, I will overcome that mountain and be victorious. If only it were possible to plant this belief into every hopeless mind and heart stumbling around in the darkness of life.

I remember while doing some preliminary research about suicide for an assignment, I read all about the signs of depression which later lead to suicidal tendencies. These signs are so typical in a lot of people that it becomes something of the norm, worse still is when a seemingly happy person commits suicide. In fact, we’re all so caught up in today’s living that most of us (including myself) hardly have time enough to see what’s happening to others.

Yes, it IS selfish to commit suicide. But, at the bottom of it all, it's just a desperate plea for help. These people have no idea of how to reach out to others anymore. Sometimes, it can feel like the world is against you or out to get you. I’m sure most have heard of the saying, “When you feel the world has turned its back on you, it’s probably you who turned your back on the world.” Personally, when I’m down in the depths of depression, hearing that phrase sounds like poppycock because my mind keeps telling me otherwise. The mind can be a very dangerous thing, indeed. Depressed people need people to approach them and to just listen. It’s difficult to reach out when you’re caught in the throes of depression. How hard can it be for others to just listen and hold out a helping hand? That’s all these people really need. A shoulder to lean on, a shoulder to cry on, an ear to listen to them, a hand to hold them up when they’re down.

One of my wishes for the world is that suicide would completely disappear. My heart breaks with every suicide case I read. Doesn't your heart break too?

I remember reading the email story about a boy who unknowingly prevented another boy he didn’t know too well from committing suicide. How often have we encountered a situation like that, where just a small act of kindness and love prevented a heartbreaking incident to occur?

Please, take a moment of silence to remember those who’ve lost loved ones to the deadly clutches of suicide and remember that someday, you can make a difference in someone’s life.

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06 januari 2004

The Meetup

Teddy music: Planet Shakers - My King

So, I met up with my online friend of six years. We started communicating since I was in Form 2 when we met in a Yahoo chat room. Today was the first time we met each other. Heh.

It was alright. Had lunch, then watched "Matchstick Men" (pretty good movie, by the way) and had hot chocolate at San Francisco. Plus, he paid for the movie and hot chocolate. I felt kinda bad but he wouldn't let me pay. Said it was his treat. I resign myself. We talked about stuff and he told me he has a girlfriend. Ooh...I wanted to see what his girlfriend looks like but unfortunately he didn't bring any pictures. He said it's only been 10 months. =)

At least this went off pretty okay. Nothing bad or anything. =) Wouldn't mind meeting up with him again later this year after he returns from US.

This Friday, I'm going to have dinner with some old seniors/friends.

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05 januari 2004

Short-Term Memory

Teddy music: United Live - My God

Of late, I've been fervently wishing I had an extremely short-term memory when it comes to unwanted memories, thoughts and feelings.

Wouldn't it be nice if it were possible to be sad/angry/upset just for a few minutes and completely forget about it in five minutes?

My mind keeps on going like a broken record at times. No matter how hard I try, it keeps re-playing over and over again. There are times I just wanna rip my head off to stop the mess.

*crouches in corner*

I feel as if I'm in a phase of life that is somehow on the draggy side. Like my pet bro recently told me, "Why are you so gloomy lately?" I remember when my dad once asked me what had happened to the cheerful, bright kid I was when I was younger.

*cries*

This inner turmoil. These feelings. I don't understand myself much. Why? Always the question of "why?". The insecurities.

I read back through my old journals that I'd kept since I was about 8-9 years old. Heh, I've been keeping journals for over a decade by now. Wow.

Anyway, as I read it, I saw the person evolving. From a bright kid that believed in everything to an adolescent that had insecurities strung everywhere and had become cynical. I want to regain that youthful innocence that one can see in the eyes of young children. That sparkle in their eyes that makes you believe how really wonderful a place the world can be. I want to recapture that simple child-like joy. I want to be brave and fearless of the world like any kid who believes that they really CAN fly.

Somehow, fears and hard lessons learned have taught me otherwise. To survive in today's world, naivety is not acceptable. To be excited over the smallest things such as a tiny ladybird crawling on one's palm can be seen as being "childish". To completely let go of one's restraints (when not drunk) is seen as "going mad". Wanting to keep that fresh spirit of life alive is hard with the reprimands that come flying out of nowhere. "No, you can't be like that! It's unacceptable. You can't act like a child anymore. Grow up! Grow UP!"

That's probably why the story of Peter Pan can strike a chord deep within my heart. The child's pure innocence is slowly torn apart by the world's grasping hands that constantly demands maturity along with cynicism and passiveness. If I were with Peter Pan, I'd live forever in Neverland.

Compare yourself now and when you were say, 5-6 years old. Everything was new and exciting and held promises of hope. Do you still look through those same eyes of expectancy or do you view the world in the light of disappointments, worries and tiredness?

The phases of life we all move through. I think, for 2004, I shall endeavour to reclaim that child-like joy, innocence and sense of positive expectancy. That's a good New Year's resolution, eh?

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04 januari 2004

Meeting Up For The First Time

Teddy music: Linkin Park - Points of Authority

Guess what? I'm gonna meet up with an online friend that I've known since 1998. We've never met or heard each other's voice. Only emailed and since last year, SMSed each other.

Funny, huh?

He said to meet up at KLCC this Tuesday. I'm kinda excited and curious and a whole bunch of other feelings as well. It's my second time (as far as I remember!) meeting an online friend for real. The first time was meeting Tim but even then, I was with my bunch of friends at that time. This time, it looks like it's just me unless I can get someone to tag along. The best part is, we've both forgotten what each other looks like. Heh.

Me wonders how this meeting will turn out. Good, I hope. =)

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03 januari 2004

Olives Are Nice

you are olive
#808000

Your dominant hues are red and green, so you're definately not afraid to get in and stir things up. You have no time for most people's concerns, you'd rather analyze with your head than be held back by some random "gut feeling".

Your saturation level is very high - you are all about getting things done. The world may think you work too hard but you have a lot to show for it, and it keeps you going. You shouldn't be afraid to lead people, because if you're doing it, it'll be done right.

Your outlook on life can be bright or dark, depending on the situation. You are flexible and see things objectively.
the spacefem.com html color quiz

Hehehe...got this off Minimoo's blog. It's pretty amazing how accurate it is. o.O


I'm getting there. I don't suck, but I've got a way to go.


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Wehehe...I'm addicted to doing quizzes and surveys and stuff. Hehehe...

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Nepal Pictures

Teddy music: Blue ft Angie Stone & Stevie Wonder - Signed, Sealed, Delivered

What a catchy song that is by Stevie Wonder. Makes me wanna go out and buy his album!

Anyways, I decided to put up a couple of pix from my recent Nepal trip (it should be chronological order! Hehe). It's just a foretaste of more to come. The link will be put up in due time. Got about 300 pictures to upload! Gaahh...

So anyways...enjoy!

ck-airplane.jpg
So this is me on the KL-Nepal flight on Qatar Airlines. I look dishevelled, I know. Was zonked out from watching T3 some minutes ago. It was taken at 11.26PM.

taxicar.jpg
The typical model for Nepali taxis. It's a far cry from the Proton Sagas/Wiras running about KL. It's a Mazda model of some sort. I dunno, I'm no car expert...But, it's cute!

nepalisoldier.jpg
Since the Maoist attacks began, it's not uncommon to see soldiers strolling about. This guy didn't carry his gun around...maybe he was off duty??

nepalivwbug.jpg
Couldn't believe my eyes when I saw one of these puttering about in Kathmandu.

namastecc.jpg
I laughed when I saw this. A cyber cafe named "Hello Cyber Cafe". (Namaste = hello/welcome)

nepalisunset.jpg
Aahhh...isn't it gorgeous? The first Nepali sunset we saw.

nepalisunrise1.jpg
nepalisunrise2.jpg
Two different sunrises (at 6.50AM!!) at two different locations on two different days. Still an awesome sight made by God.!

nepalimatrix.jpg
When they say "Opening Worldwide", they really mean worldwide. =)

sunsetmounts1.jpg
sunsetmounts2.jpg
Repeat what I've just written above for the sunrise pictures. Except, these are mountains stained with the sun's dying glory as it sets in the evening sky.

nepalmountains.jpg
A view from the hotelroom at Fulbari Resort & Spa...one of the places in Nepal. Wonderful, huh? =)

tibetantoddler.jpg
This toddler lives in the Tibetan refugee camp. To say "hello" (or something like that) you say, "Tashiling". It's Tibetan. =)

nepaliland.jpg
mounteverest.jpg
evereststewardess.jpg
This are some shots taken while on the plane trip to see the Himalayan mountain range. It just took your breath away. You can even see Mount Everest! They let us go to the pilot cabin one by one to have a better view of the mountain range. Cool! Isn't the air stewardess pretty?

cremation.jpg
A Nepali funeral in process. They cremate the traditional way - wood + hay/straw + corpse. You can even see the corpse's feet sticking out. o.O Too bad if you can't stand such a macabre sight. It was actually quite fascinating to watch them carry out the funeral. The pic you're viewing is a funeral already underway. My dad and I watched another funeral from the beginning that was held on the adjacent stone pedestal-thingy.

christstolen.jpg
Hahaha...was laughing away (and coughing at the same time =| hate being sick on holiday!) when I saw this sign hanging in a bakery's window. I think they meant to say "Christmas Stollen" (a type of sweet bread). Funny, eh? I have a weird sense of humour, I admit. My family laughed when they saw it too.

Well, that was a short preview of the 300 pictures (digital ONLY, mind you!) that were taken on my family's Nepal trip. The link to the photo album online, as I mentioned earlier, will be put up later. :)

*teddy hugs*

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01 januari 2004

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2004!

Teddy music: Auld Lang Syne

Well, it's officially 2004, people. Phew, where does the time go?

Anyway, was surfing at Melissa's blog and came across some interesting links.

This is one of them - it's a rating by the Gematricular (it rates how good/evil your site is).

This is my blog's rating:
This site is certified 65% EVIL by the Gematriculator

Muahahaa....*evil teddy laughter*

I'm bored. V. bored.

Can't wait to go on the Langkawi trip with collegemates.

Was re-reading The Very Secret Diaries of LOTR. Haha, it's super funny! V. good stuff however sick and sarcastic it may be. =P

V. bored again.

Sighs...but it's good to feel bored BECAUSE I'm holiday and not because of studies or something else. Haven't felt this way for a long time. It's nice. Haha.

http://www.yourchillin.com
What animal are you? Take the test!

A horse? Oh well...

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