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31 maart 2005
Inner Frustration
Teddy music: Benny Golson - Dear Kathy
Grrr...sometimes it gets so frustrating. It's bloody irritating.
Makes you want to break something. Makes you want to smack something. Or...or...grrrr....
But, I can't really gripe about it. Got to learn how to deal.
Hmmm...groceries are in need. Milk, Milo, cottage cheese.
Oh...and I can't wait for the package to come! Woohoo...
*teddy hugs*
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30 maart 2005
Break Before It Hits
Teddy music: Planetshakers - My King
Went to watch 'Be Cool' at Hoyts with Kel, Anthony, Meryl, Miki & Christine. Kev was busy being the "good tourist guide/big brother" to his sister who's visiting him. Needed the break after doing the Ad Strategy assignment which was thankfully handed in today. Yes, it was stressful because of my procrastination. Which means it was done near last minute. It was a bloody funny movie...but you'd need to have some background in knowing other movies/trends to get the jokes and keep an eye for heaps of cameos! =)
Thank You, God, that there was no MAJOR disaster from the quake that just happened in Indonesia. Scary and uncertain times we're living in nowadays. =\
March is zipping by. Wow. What else is in store??
*teddy hugs*
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26 maart 2005
Keeping Above Water
Teddy music: United Live - Consuming Fire
Another bad night. But I'm better now.
Funny how when you feel really down and out, that sometimes you'll get little surprises that perk you up just a bit so that you can move out of that sad zone.
First perk was when reading Is' blog. Small wonder I call him 'darling'. Haha...and yeh, if not for you, I wouldn't remember that incident and I had no idea that it meant that way to you... =) Cheers, darling.
Second perk was when talking to a friend and she told me something that really made me laugh. Seems that she and another dear friend dreamt about me (!) and the times we spent together. Hehe...it was really funny but damn, it made me miss them too. Still, it was a good perk nonetheless.
Now...I've got to get back to my assignment. One thing that I find weird about myself is that no matter how upset I get, I can never abandon what needs to be done. In this case, my assignment that's due on Tuesday. I can't be like some people who just drop everything and couldn't care less. I wouldn't be able to wallow properly with some little niggering thought at the back of my mind.
Well...wish me luck!
*teddy hugs*
P.S. Received one more perk just ten minutes ago (it's now half past midnight)...my housemate, Ivo, gave me a chocolate Easter Egg!! Awww....hahaha...
In three hours, daylight savings ends and it'll be 2 hours difference from Malaysia...woohoo!
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25 maart 2005
Starry Hopes Shot Through?
Teddy music: Matt Redman - Let My Words Be Few
I think it's never easy to tell yourself that sometimes, it's better to just not expect too much. On the other hand, I can't quit the hope I have. Why? God made a promise. And, He's a God of promises. He never breaks the promises He gives quite unlike us humans.
I've got a lot of hopes and dreams for this year and after. I don't know how to reach them, honestly. Some seem to be dying or difficult to reach. And yes, it's not easy to see it dying.
I see it there but the way to get there - it's pretty murky from my humanistic view. Yet, I still believe that somehow I will eventually get there with God's grace and favour.
So yeh...I'm reaching for the stars the only way I know how - by reaching up to God first. =)
*teddy hugs*
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22 maart 2005
Cold Wet Mix
Teddy music: K&J - Pulanglah (Tak Mengapa)
It's times like these I thank God for the awesome friends He's blessed me with. Is darling, you come down hard at times but you mean well, nonetheless. FYI, there'll be an email coming your way soon =) Jase...the bestest dugong friend around! Hehe...
It's another rainy day here.
Cold and wet.
Inside and outside.
So I slept through another night of cold wetness. All I wanted to do was sleep into oblivion.
Teddy music: Celine Dion - Goodbye's (The Saddest Word)
Mummy dear...HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! *muaks* If you're reading this...I love you! And, miss you here...and I dedicate this song to you =) You're the best and only mummy for me =) *hugs*
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Checked my mail today and yay, the materials have arrived! Now to get cracking on it...
Get off the lazy arse and hit the books full on! No more random thoughts...no more.
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Rockin' MacFest
Teddy music: Will Smith ft. Jada Pinkett - 1000 Kisses
How proud am I of my close buddy, Jasemaine! =)
Go check out what she's been up to lately at the MacFest.
Go, Jase, go!
Oohhooo...
And, for you peeps who've yet to hear her awesome music...go to Jasemaine Gan. I promise you that you won't be disappointed with the music. =)
*teddy hugs*
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18 maart 2005
Random Shots
Teddy music: O-Town - We Fit Together
Hmmm....this entry's more of a photo blog entry than anything else, I guess. =) This weekend's the Canberra Day long weekend but not much difference since my weekends are always long as I've only class from Tuesday to Thursday... Hehe ;P
Here's two pictures I took that night Kevin took me up to Mount Ainslie. Isn't the view awesome?
This is my first time making the instant mac'n'cheese...it's not the best health food but it tastes damn yummy...haha
And earlier, Lora & Cute made brownies...brownie sundae is smashing!
Teddy music: Smash Mouth - Do It Again
A random shot of Kel with Baby Wombat...
Me...after a day...hah. It's been a cool autumn day - perfect! 14 degrees Celsius...loving the weather here! That's why I'm wearing my cute lil' grumpy-faced P.O. [ask me if you don't know what that means - and no, it doesn't mean "Post Box"] Calvin jumper. =)
It makes me wonder...does it look like I've lost any weight? Haha...what do you think from what you see?
End of April, there's an IH Sydney trip! Woohoo...will have to remember to call up Tim & Pat beforehand...but I'll definitely be making another longer trip during the semester break mid-year...
*teddy hugs*
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17 maart 2005
Rainy Day Heart
Teddy music: Bellefire - Can't Cry Hard Enough
Was reminded of this when I read Is' blog...
I hate the way you talk to me and the way you cut your hair,
I hate it when you drive my car,
I hate it when you stare,
I hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind,
I hate you so much it makes me sick, it even makes me rhyme.
I hate the way you're always right,
I hate it when you lie,
I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry,
I hate it that you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call,
But mostly I hate the way I don 't hate you,
not even close,
not even a little bit,
not even at all.
Yep, it's the little poem that Julia Stiles' character, Kat, reads out in class to Heath Ledger's Patrick.
I remember I teared when her voice started to break at the last verse.
Why did I put this up? It just struck a chord in me.
Teddy music: Michael Jackson - Man In The Mirror
Hmmm...it's been a rainy day. Overcast grey skies and cool winds. Perfect for just sleeping in or lazing around.
Hehe...I made my first mac and cheese...the instant kind. Mmmm...it's so yummy even though it's not exactly the most healthiest but hey, one wants comfort food when it's these kinda days! :P
I realised in a way that being on the ground floor has its disadvantage. When your curtains are drawn back, it's easy for people to scare you by knocking/banging on your window. Or, just standing there. Haha. I had two scares today (or rather, yesterday).
Teddy music: Dido - White Flag
First scare: Saif knocked on my window as he was passing by to his block (IH1) to say hi. It really gave me a shock.
Second scare: Kevin was just silently standing outside. When I turned around, got another shock. Hmph...it doesn't help that with his long hair, it's kinda scary in the dark.
If you're laughing now...go ahead. Wait until it's your turn.
*teddy hugs*
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15 maart 2005
Tired Contemplation
Teddy music: Saliva - Rest In Pieces
I'm done with lectures/tutes for the day. Too bad I fell asleep for a bit during Language, Culture & Society's lecture. Going to have to watch the last bit again - thank God it's recorded for later viewing! Phew...
It's annoying when the data network on ressies goes down. Meh.
Joan emailed me back and informed about the 21 days of fasting and prayer that Grace Assembly's going through. I think I'll probably join along here...
It seems like God's saying something to me...but I don't quite know or understand fully what it is yet. Looks like I really need to get into action and get serious about it.
Teddy music: Snow Patrol - Whatever's Left
Sometimes, I wonder if I expect too much. From myself. From others. From God.
Teddy music: Snow Patrol - Run
Just spent some time looking at the newsletters on Grace Assembly's site. It just hit me in the face what I should be holding onto here. Faith. Obedience. Trust. Belief.
Oh God, what am I turning into here? What am I doing here?
I can't let myself go. For God, I must stay on track.
*teddy hugs*
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11 maart 2005
Draining Teddy Brain
Teddy music: Prince - When Doves Cry
Now I'm playing all the songs in my iTunes that have not been played fully at least once. Pretty interesting selection of songs here. Heh.
Blergh. Tuesdays and Thursdays usually leave me most drained. Sure, it's only about 6 hours of studies but it's nearly back to back. The amount of concentration to participate actively in class and the effort to not fall asleep during lectures...
I think now I understand more fully why my friend can be so tired after a full day at uni.
It's getting colder slightly here. In the day it's still bearable but nighttime's when it starts to get chilly.
Rover and I have yet to do the virtual IH tour. Give it some time. =)
I'm drained.
*teddy hugs*
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10 maart 2005
"Accidental" Pain
Teddy music: Uncle Kracker - Follow Me
I can't help it. It's not my fault I do this to myself. I swear it's not on purpose. I just can't help it.
Cut by a razor blade. Bruised by the corner of the bed. Stubbed by the doorframe. Burned by the frying pan. Blistered (is there even such a word?) by the shoes.
Self-mutilation. By accident.
Yep. Blame it on carelessness.
Teddy music: Whitney Houston - My Love Is Your Love
I realised that maybe quite a few haven't seen what my room looks like. For those who did see the initial pictures...it's changed a bit since then. More stuff on the walls actually. Wait a bit and I'll get Rover to take you on a virtual tour of the International House block I'm in. Haha. FYI, Rover's the teddy keychain that Liz gave at Christmas - he's a faithful keychain holder =)
Well, think I'd better turn in since I've got an early lecture tomorrow.
Teddy music: Sam Phillips - I Don't Know How to Say Goodbye to You
And yesh, learning to "savour" the feelings of missing people back home. This song exemplifies my feelings exactly. It's a part of life or as they say, "C'est la vie."
I think it's sweet in a way how my mummy tells me she misses me online. Never really saw such a softie side to her before. Hehe. =) Anyone else wanna tell me they miss me? Hehe...
*teddy hugs*
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07 maart 2005
Crunching
Teddy music: Bon Jovi - Always
Played an hour of squash about half hour ago. Still kinda sucky at it but hope to improve.
Went to the National Library with Anthony so I could try and do some research for one of my assignments. Anthony was meant to meet his groupmates but ended up being reaaally late...it took about 30-40 minutes from UC to reach the library. Discovered that I'd lost my beloved Pilot Pen in the library when leaving so went to The Hub at uni to buy a new one. Bumped into Kevin at the UCU store. Heh.
Teddy music: Michael Jackson - Scream
I'm pretty frustated with this MSN thing. Since the Mac version of MSN doesn't work on the ressies network, I'm using Adium instead. Weirdly enough, quite a few of my friends can't see me online or reply when messaged. Even better, I can't see some friends and neither can they. Either something's fishy or the thing's just screwed up. What the hell...?
Yesh, I want to scream now.
OK, off for a bath, grab some nosh and pack it in at the library. Wish me luck with assignments that're due in consecutive weeks!
*teddy hugs*
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04 maart 2005
Midnight Drive
Teddy music: Rockapella - Stand By Me
Last night or rather, this morning, went for drive up to Mount Ainslie with Kevin. Not my brother, by the way. He's Kelvin's friend. Yeh, it's kind of funny but hey, whatever. Hehe.
It was more of an impulse drive since it was late (after midnight) and there wasn't much to do. No classes on Friday meant it was possible to sleep in. So off we went to Mount Ainslie.
It was really gorgeous the view up there. True that at night, there isn't much to see but I think the city looks prettier with the twinkling lights and the dark sky glittering with stars and the perfect half moon.
Teddy music: Frank Sinatra - I Won't Dance
You could see the northern side of Canberra and a bit of New South Wales. It was way cool. And while we were there, there were two kangaroos feeding at the bottom of the wall.
Canberra is a pretty city. Especially when you looked at how the War Memorial, old and new Parliament buildings were laid out. Beautiful!
We stayed there for about an hour and a bit before coming home at 3AM.
Teddy music: Ryan Cabrera - Illusions
And this Saturday, Kevin's going to take me ice skating! Woohoo... =) On Sunday, off to Civic to watch the special screening of "My House In Umbria" with Ivo. He's got a pass for two! Yay...movie time! =)
*teddy hugs*
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02 maart 2005
Late Night Online
Teddy music: Counting Crows - Accidentally In Love
It was really great that Tim was online last night. Helped me to move off the lonely bug bite.
It's usually a lot of fun chatting with Kayu. Sometimes he makes the most inane comments but he also makes some insightful viewpoints as well.
We talked a bit about homesickness/missing family and friends back home. Then he said this that made a whole lot of sense (although I already was trying to tell myself that), "Maybe give it another month or two...should be settled in by then?"
Yep, just gotta try and keep my head above the water.
Teddy music: Usher - You'll Be In My Heart
Physically I'm settled in. Heart-wise, not quite yet. Just as soon as I can get over missing people. Just as soon as I stop. Can it stop? You tell me.
*teddy hugs*
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Bug Bitten
Teddy music: Ryan Cabrera - 40 Kinds of Sadness
Been bitten by two bugs.
One bug is the annoyingly tiny bloodsucking mozzie-ish insects. Another is the lonely bug.
I'll deal with it. One's itchy and the other is something you'd just have to learn to deal with.
It's funny how draining a whole day can be. A two-hour lecture followed by an hour's break, then a 1.5 hour tutorial with a half hour break before the final one hour of lecture for the day.
I came back and crashed out for probably 30 minutes (?) before I got woken up.
Teddy music: Vertical Horizon - You Say
Damn. I miss my family and friends back home. I don't think I could ever really live on my own. As in, solitude living. I'd likely go crazy. I need someone to talk to and interact with. Maybe if I had a cat or dog, it might not be as bad.
Weird how the more you want something, it takes longer for it to come. Why is that so, God? To test our patience? It's very hard. Something I've yet to truly grasp the concept of and to live by it.
Anyway...M&Ms have always helped to cheer me up a little...and look at the ones I bought a couple weeks back.
I can't believe it's going to be a month since I've set foot in Canberra. o.O
*teddy hugs*
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01 maart 2005
Candlelight
Teddy music: Vertical Horizon - Best I Ever Had
I've gotten into the habit of lighting up these three scented candles I bought when I'm doing my quiet time or just reflecting in my room.
The fragrance of lavender, vanilla and rose is soothing. Weird combination it may be, but I like it that way.
Just like how I'm greeted with the fresh citrusy scent of bergamot whenever I open my food cabinet (thanks to the box of Earl Grey teabags) =)
So now it's the second week of lectures and tutes begin as well. Me wonders what's in store. One unit (they're not called "subjects" here) has a heck of a lot reading prior lectures - that is, if you bother reading up.
Seems like there's a flu bug going round. Kelvin got a really bad case of sore throat and runny nose but he seems to be improving. Myself, still waking up with a froggy throat but it gets better over the day. That and chugging down lots of water.
Teddy music: BBMak - Out Of My Heart
Settling down into life here. Feeling pretty comfortable living on ressies.
It is a bit of bother to always have to note down what groceries need to be bought weekly. My 3-litre bottle of mik seems to vanish within just a week. The 2-litre juice carton as well. Hehe. I likes me milk and juice. ;P
Besides that, Kelvin and I have been watching heaps of Naruto anime. ;P I never thought I'd get to this stage. But surprisingly, it's not bad. And, the company's good. Especially with Baby Wombat and Mr Wombat around (that's what I named his two wombat toys - they are the cutest wombat toys ever!).
Teddy music: V.E. - Abadi
I'm really glad that God gave me a great housemate like Kelvin. Hehe...it's nice to have someone you can go to when bored. He willingly lets me hang out in his room and we'll usually end up eating dinner together if I'm not having a general dinner with the other collegemates.
Teddy music: Usher - U Make Me Wanna
I'm hoping to settle down into a proper programme of being able to fit in squash, jogging and perhaps swimming later on.
I forgot how much fun squash is although it'll need more practice before I get better. And, got to get used to whacking the racquet into the side of the wall. o.O
As for jogging, I've got Kelvin as a buddy. Last week, we went jogging with two other friends. If it wasn't for him, I really think I would've given up as soon as we reached New Ressies after doubling back. We probably jogged about 2 km and a bit more. Phoo...
Teddy music: Gavin DeGraw - More Than Anyone [Live]
Swimming is something I hope to do when Kelvin and Ivo have signed up for classes at CISAC (Canberra Institute of Sports and Aquatic Centre). I don't need classes but I do need someone to walk with me to CISAC. Although it's only about 15 minutes walk from the ressies, I'd feel safer with another person.
I really like it here. I'm not homesick at all. I'm only family/friend-sick. The only reason that could probably convince me to go back are the family and friends in Malaysia. Even then, I'm not sure. Sorry if that sounds kinda cruel. But other than that, I'm quite happy to relocate.
Teddy music: All-4-One - Men Are Not Supposed To Cry
Haha...this song is probably something I should dedicate to a particular friend. I shall email about this to my friend...ehehhee
I'm digressing here.
Went to see my first movie here on Friday. It was one Malaysian and three Singaporeans - Kelvin, Meryl & Anthony. What did we watch? Constantine. It was alright but some scenes were too visual for me. Those who know me well would understand what I meant by that. ;P Kelvin was amused by Meryl's and my reactions during the movie.
Teddy music: University of CA Men's Octet - Every Breath You Take
One thing I'm still getting used to in a sense are the serving sizes. Heh. It goes without saying.
Oh well, it's late and I've got a full day that starts early.
*teddy hugs*
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